Thursday, February 17, 2011

Your top 10


Remember back in the MySpace days you could pick your top 8 friends, and if someone didn't put you in their top 8 you'd be pissed?



About a month ago my therapist and I were discussing Facebook and she was shocked at the number of friends I had (at that time less then 1,000) She couldnt believe that I interacted with that many people on a regular basis so Just for fun we did a little "exercise". She had me list the first 10 Facebook friends (no particular order) that came to mind, then we went down the list and I had to tell her what they meant to me. Not who they are, but why they were important to me. It was surprising to me the people that I listed. I honestly dont remember the names of everyone but I could tell you 5 of them.. IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.


1. My Mom
2. Cheri
3. Carl Mason
4 Sheridan Parsons
5 My Niece


2 of these people I have never even met, but they make me laugh and smile everyday.

You should try this.. Without looking at Facebook, list 10 people off the top of your head, then think of why they are important to you. Then tell them!!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

All about Capricorns

I found this on the internet, and since my birthday is coming up (January 12th) I thought it was a good time for some self reflection.

The sign Capricorn is one of the most stable and (mostly) serious of the zodiacal types. These independent, rocklike characters have many sterling qualities. They are normally confident, strong willed and calm. These hardworking, unemotional, shrewd, practical, responsible, persevering, and cautious to the extreme persons, are capable of persisting for as long as is necessary to accomplish a goal they have set for themselves. Capricorn are reliable workers in almost any profession they undertake. They are the major finishers of most projects started by the 'pioneering' signs; with firm stick-to-it-ness they quickly become the backbone of any company they work for.

Capricorn make of themselves, resourceful, determined managers; setting high standards for themselves and others. They strive always for honesty in their criticism of self, they respect discipline from above and demand it from those beneath them. In their methodical, tough, stubborn, unyielding way, they persist against personal hardship, putting their families and/or their work before their own needs and welfare to reach their objectives long after others have given up and fallen by the wayside. In fact when practical ability allied with the drive of ambition are required in employees to make a project succeed, Capricorn are the people to hire. They plan carefully to fulfill their ambitions (which often include becoming wealthy), they are economical without meanness, and able to achieve great results with minimum effort and expense. Because of their organizing ability they are able to work on several projects simultaneously.

They have a great respect for authority but may not, if they reach high rank, be willing to listen to other opinions on things they are directly responsible for. As the ranking authority figure in a given situation they expect their underlings to be as self disciplined as they themselves are, and to perform every task undertaken to the highest standard.
They are, nevertheless, fair as well as demanding. Among their equals they are not always the most pleasant of work fellows for they are reserved and too conservative, valuing tradition more than innovation, however valuable the latter, and they are often humorless. There is also a tendency to pessimism, melancholy and even unhappiness which many Capricorn are unable to keep to themselves, especially if they fail personally. In the extreme this trait can make them a very depressed individual; ecstatic happiness alternating with the most wretched kind of misery which is so subconsciously buried that he or she should seek help if such emotions become frequent. For the above reason, capable Capricorn should spend many hours in meditation, gathering the strength to control such inner emotions.

The swings in mood are not the only reason some Capricorns deserve the adjective based on their name - capricious. They can be surprisingly and suddenly witty and subtle for the quiet, reserved individuals they seem to be, and they also have a tendency to ruin things by unexpected and utterly irresponsible bouts of flippancy. In certain individuals in whom the characteristic is strong, the temptation to do this has to be resisted with iron self-control. Another unexpected quality in some Capricorn is an interest in the occult which persists in spite of their naturally skeptical turn of mind.

Their intellects are sometimes very subtle. They think profoundly and deeply, throughly exploring all possibilities before deciding on a 'safe' alternative. They have good memories and an insatiable yet methodical desire for knowledge. They are rational, logical and clearheaded, have good concentration, delight in debate in which they can show off their cleverness by luring their adversaries into traps and confounding them with logic.

In their personal relationships they are often ill-at-ease, if not downright unhappy. They are somewhat self-centered but not excessively so, wary and cautious around people they do not know very well, preferring not to meddle with others and in turn not to allow interference with themselves, thus they tend to attract people who do not understand them. Casual acquaintances they will treat with diplomacy, tact and, above all, reticence. They make few good friends but are intensely loyal to those they do make, and they can become bitter, and powerful enemies. They sometimes dislike the opposite sex and test the waters of affection gingerly before judging the temperature right for marriage. Once married, however, they are faithful, though inclined to jealousy. Most Capricorns marry for life.

Their occupations can include most professions that have to do with math or money and they are strongly attracted to music. They can be economists, financiers, bankers, speculators, contractors, managers and real estate brokers. They excel as bureaucrats, especially where projects demanding long-term planning and working are concerned, and their skill in debate and love of dialectic make them good politicians. They are excellent teachers, especially as principals of educational establishments where they have the authority to manage and organize without too much intimacy with the staff members. If working with their hands, they can become practical scientists, engineers, farmers and builders. The wit and flippancy which is characteristic of certain Capricornians may make some turn to entertainment as a career.

Toys for Kids A program of The Imperial Court de San Diego

Diving head first into its 35th year, The Imperial Court de San Diego “Toys for Kids” Holiday drive encourages the community to donate an unwrapped toy or a monetary donation, which will benefit families across San Diego County and Tijuana. In a continued effort to support diverse family units, last year’s holiday drive successfully provided 42 families with much needed food and gifts for the holiday season.

“Since 1974, The Imperial Court de San Diego held the Toys for Kids drive in an effort to provide gifts to local children who fall below the poverty line” says City Commissioner, Nicole Murray Ramirez,

About Toys for Kids: The Imperial Court’s annual Toys for Kids drive, the oldest holiday toy drive of the LGBT community, was established in 1974 after the Marine Toys for Tots Foundation refused to accept donations from the homosexual community. From the time of its inception, the Toys for Kids program has brought holiday cheer to thousands of children throughout San Diego County and Mexico.

This year The Imperial Court de San Diego is distributing toys to a minimum of 6 organizations including

1)Family Matters
2)Barrio Station
3)Acosida in Tijuana
4)Escondido Health Center
5)Ramona Health Services
6)Christie's Place

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Lonely is the Night

I couldn't get this song out of my head last night, after reading the lyrics I understand why. I know there are a lot of other people out there that feel like I do.. Im just not afraid to admit it. So to those that are afraid.. This ones for you!




Lonely is the night when you find yourself alone
Your demons come to light and your mind is not your own

Lonely is the night when there's no one left to call
You feel the time is right--(say) the writin's on the wall

It's a high time to fight when the walls are closin' in
Call it what you like--it's time you got to win
Lonely, lonely, lonely--your spirit's sinkin' down
You find you're not the only stranger in this town

Red lights, green lights, stop 'n go jive
Headlines, deadlines jammin' your mind
You been stealin' shots from the side
Let your feelin's go for a ride

There's danger out tonight..the man is on the prowl
Get the dynamite...the boys are set to howl
Lonely is the night when you hear the voices call
Are you ready for a fight--do you wanna take it all

Slowdown, showdown--waitin' on line
Showtime, no time for changin' your mind
Streets are ringin', march to the sound
Let your secrets follow you down

Somebody's watchin' you baby--so much you can do
Nobody's stoppin' you baby, from makin' it too
One glimpse'll show you now baby, what the music can do
One kiss'll show you now baby--it can happen to you

No more sleepin', wastin' our time
Midnight creepin's first on our minds
No more lazin' 'round the tv
You'll go crazy--come out with me

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Sanity is a point of view

This was written by the 14 year old son (a freshman in high school) of a Facebook friend of mine, she and I have only meet once, and she honked at me once as I was walking down University Ave. But stuff like this is one of the reasons I love making new friends on Facebook, you never know how someone will touch your heart or make you smile. I havent changed any of his words, just the spelling of a few words.

Sanity is a point of view, just the same is with reason, reality, and the five human senses. these are what really separates the sane and the insane. its just that the people who ...are in the popular majority are defined not crazy. the people who have a slightly different perspective are called losers, weird, gay, and are usually outcast or hidden to what they want to be. once in a long while one of these people are brave enough to become a revolutionary and make the next big discovery or revelation. even create a new religion. so a repressed soul or crazy person may be hard to interpret but full of valuable information. like a instruction manual in a different language of their own. some people are wrongly considered crazy, as some knot known, some controversially known. the idea of sanity & insanity is one of the many things that create most problems across the world. but like our bio-structure, without it we would not be human.

that is what became in the changes of evolution.
we gained the ability to judge others perspective.
animals do not do this. either they get along or
die. we evolved to humans to drag out this process
so we could keep the human population high to
become the dominant species on the planet.

in retrospect, evolution is a combat tactic

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Im not the only one that feels this way....

A friend on Facebook tagged me in this note last night.. I didn't really read it until today but its funny how many of his feelings are the same as mine. Its nice to know I'm not alone.

I don't understand....by Harley Hinton on Tuesday,

I don't understand how people smile all day long, but cry themselves to sleep. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy. How forever turns into a few short months, that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live w|out. How people who once wanted to spend every second w| you, thinks a moment is too much to spare. How a persons smell stays w| you, even when they are not there. How no one will take the blame, but everyone wants the credit. How people make promises they know will never happen. How people can erase you from their lives just cause its easier than working things out. How ones who hurt you the most are the ones that are SO close. How the ones who truly understand you, never seem to know it, and the ones who always wanted to never really will. How the ones who are distant, never seem to leave and the ones who get close, make it really hard to breathe. How you make so many plans, you know will never happen, and what always seems to happen, isn't what you planned. How you know so many people, but feel like no ones there. How the ones who made you happy, now don't even care. and we are just left wondering ... why cant life be fair ?

Monday, October 18, 2010

Let it go!

I borrowed this from my friend Rick, and Im going to keep reading it until I believe it.

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to, LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to past hurts and pains, LET IT GO!!! If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth... LET IT GO!!! If someone has angered you, LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge, LET IT GO!!! If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction, LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents, LET IT GO!!! If you have a bad attitude, LET IT GO!!! If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better, LET IT GO!!! If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him, LET IT GO!!! If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship, LET IT GO!!! If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves, LET IT GO!!! If you're feeling depressed and stressed, LET IT GO!!! If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to, LET IT GO!!! Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing, LET IT GO!!!